I'm feeling kind of sad and alone and just wanna vent, I guess. I am living in Peru and marrying a Peruvian. Our wedding will be here in Peru in October due to visa issues, and only my parents and one cousin are able to come to my wedding. The majority of our guests will be his family and a few of my Peruvian friends. My very best girl friends can't make it to the wedding because they have families, and flights are expensive. Even my brother can't make it due to the cost of travel
My Peruvian friends are great, but they're not like my closest friends that I've had in my life forever. Even though I'm excited about the wedding and marrying my wonderful fiance, and I'm so thankful my parents and cousin will be here, I can't help but feel alone. This weekend I went shopping for wedding decor alone, and wished the whole time I could do it with my mom or friends. My mom and I do wedding planning together, but over the phone or Skype and its just not the same. My fiance's mom and aunts always offer to take me out to do planning or shopping and they're great but its a bit stressful because they're kind of overbearing and I feel rude when I don't like their suggestions, so I usually prefer to do things alone.
Once my fiance and I are living in Canada together, we are planning on having a second celebration, for all those important to me that can't be at the wedding. That won't be for probably a year, due to the visa for my fiance, so we are thinking it will be something like a vow renewal ceremony and party. But its just not the same as the actual wedding.
Has anybody else ever gone through this? Encouragement, advice, whatever?
Thank you!