uhm.... hai (bits of a vent)

bbuckner984

So....

It's been awhile since I posted, but I have been lurking quite a bit. Honestly, the last few weeks have been sorta rough. I have been kinda down, and couldn't really get it up for wedding stuff, KWIM? Well, really anything. It's been kinda sucky. I go through these lulls every once in awhile. Work situation is stressing me out- mostly because I applied for 2 new positions (same co I work for now) and havent heard back on either. One of them is still open, but for reals I had my totally awesome interview over 3 weeks ago. If I didn't get it, tell me. I'm a big girl and can handle it. 

Also, my dad is leaving his current wife (my family history is all kindsa screwy, but this is technically my former step dad and his wife) which is kinda messing with me. Not to mention he is the one funding our wedding (he volunteered and wouldnt take no for an answer) so the money so close to the wedding is stressful. I get to go and help him move next weekend... yay. 

So... that is why I haven't been posting, and generally why I have not been the best DW knottie lately. I mailed my V-day cards today.... so sorry they are kinda late for those on the list. I will say that receiving the ones I did throughout the last couple of days has been wonderful and a nice bit of sunshine on my days. For the 2 Canada girls... I'm going to the post office tomorrow. Lets just say that the love needs to be spread around every day. 

On another note- noticed today that we are 12 weeks out... less than 3 months. The list of To-Dos in my head is kinda making me want to crawl under a rock. FI and I talked the other day, and I told him I just want to married already, screw the wedding. He agreed, LOL. 

But, for those girls who have been here awhile- thank you for always posting nice, positive things. Though I have been lurking and not posting, just reading the awesomeness of this board does bring a huge smile to my face. And for the newbie brides- this is completely the place to be. I wish I had found it earlier in my planning process. 

OK, and I am done with the pity party. Not expecting sympathies- just wanted to vent a bit. 

jtoly

I was just wondering what happened to you tonight. Seriously, I was going to post a....where the heck is Brittany post! Sorry for all that's going on. I must be hard dealing with what's going on and planning a wedding at the same time. I hope things work out for your dad. As far as work, I stress over it every day. I love my job so much but really hate my supervisor. FI tries to tell me it's just work and to not let it bother me but it's hard not to so I won't even tell you that. TK does get me through the day though! Hopefully you'll stop lurking ; )

jtoly

Ah.....where did my siggy go to? I don't see it? Damn you wonky Knot!!

bbuckner984

thanks Jen- I know I got all MIA for awhile... which sucks and I hate doing that. 

Work is work. I have a habit of getting bored easily with what I am doing and looking for better. Fortunately I am good at what I do (not being braggy... my numbers back it up) so I have been able to move to different positions when needed thus far. This current gig is burning me up though since the hiring manager seems to be taking his sweet time. 

I have heard you vent about your job before and I will say it again- I think your supervisor is king/queen douche. I admire you for putting up with it thus far, but I would not blame you for looking elsewhere. 

jtoly

I hope you get the job you want. Can you ask what the status is? Lol, my supervisor is a queen douche, and to think we were friends once. She started about 9 months after me in the same position. We became friends and I have gone to parties at her house, took my dtr over to swim with her kids, and we even took our kids to an amusement park together. As soon as she became supervisor it went right to her head!

bbuckner984

oh I have had coworkers like that for sure. A little bit of power... 

I emailed last Thursday and he said he was still in the interviewing process. Wow... way to make a decision. 

jtoly

Ya, that's a long time! Stay positive! Seriously....where did my siggy go?! Lol

kimmykupcakes

Sorry, to hear you haven't been feeling well. Hopefully, your spirits will lift up soon. Don't worry about the Valentine's. I actually have my last two going out in the mail tomorrow. I ran out of cards and stamps. Then I forgot to stick them in the mail today. Good grief! Anyway, last two going out tomorrow. 

minionlover

::waves:: 

Well hello stranger!!  We have missed you.  I am sorry to hear that you have been a little down...we been a little down too...Jenn's phone hasn't given us any exciting auto-corrects.  Anyways, I hope that you will stop lurking and come out and play again.  Job vibes for the position that you interviewed for!!

jtoly

Sorry about the phone, it must be on a break again.