I don't know if I'm super hormonal or WTF is going on but I have just had the worst thoughts, and the lowest self esteem lately. I found out today after a month of waiting that I was NOT accepted into the PhD of Epedemiology program and that was a major crusher....major. One thing that I am most passionate about more than anything in life is science. Its what I'm good at, what interests me and what I want to do for the rest of my life. After a long and confusing time in college (after I decided I didn't want to be physician because I got to see what people are really like and Im not that patient) I had to find something else to do after college since I had always planned on furthering my education beyond my bachelors. Well...I put everything into this emotionally and I just want to cry my face off.
Then, the stress of all this house buying crap has really drained FI and me and we've been snapping at each other. Nothing big but we never do this and so I guess that's why it hurts that much more.
I'm just drained and its making me a poopy person to be around and I'm trying to stay positive and I am really excited about everything thats coming up but for some reason I can't shake this blah feeling. It just sucks. Royally. but thanks for letting me vent
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