So sad.... (possibly yucky and TMI... beware)

kevinandmonica2011

Just to keep all my wonderful Knotties in the loop...

Sooo... yesterday I noticed some spotting and I got really nervous.  For whatever reason, I decided to take another pregnancy test (to reassure myself, maybe?)... and it was negative.  I freaked out and bought 3 more.  all 3 came back negative.  I was so sick and upset all night.  This morning, I bled pretty bad.  I called my OB as soon as they opened and explained... they had me come right over.

I just got back from the OB and I did have a "chemical" pregnancy or an early miscarriage... I was trying to prepare for the worst, hope for the best... but I think I was still holding out hope... I think I am just numb right now. 

TBH, at first I was completely shocked that we were able to conceive so quickly.  I had been on the pill for about 12 years and it took less than 2 months after I stopped for my BFP.  The first day or 2 after I don't think it completely sunk in.  Then Sunday/Monday I was really starting to get excited about everything... now I am just devastated.  What a roller coaster.

lornarose07

Im so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Try to stay positive and remember that it WILL happen for real when it is meant to.

DondadaTimes2

Im so sorry Monica. Although Ive never had one myself, I was with my bff through the worst of her miscarriage so if you need to talk/vent/cry/wine/etc, Im here. Give it time and it'll happen for you guys

MelissaC315

I'm so so sorry that this happened. I know it has to be really hard to be so happy and then so devastated all within the same week. It WILL happen for you, don't lose hope! And if you'd like to talk/vent/get some lunch, whatever let me know I'd be glad to

ChelseaB425

I'm so sorry, Monica.

My future MIL suffered through 2 miscarriages before having her first child. It's heartbreaking to hear her talk about, but, like she always points out, now she has 3 healthy, happy kids. Even though it's probably hard to think about right now, your time will come. 

kevinandmonica2011

Thanks ladies.   

carissalf

I am so sorry Monica. I know how devastating that can be.  I helped one of my bffs get through her traumatic time.

I know you likely don't want to hear this, but maybe it will be for the best. My mother and father had planned on having a boy and a girl. My sister was born first and then my mom became pregnant with a boy, and had a late[r] miscarriage.  If that wouldn't have occured, I likely wouldn't be here...because after that they kept trying.  Keep your chin up.  I wish you all the best.

kevinandmonica2011

Thanks so much for all of the support, ladies!  You all are so wonderful!

sbolger17

Oh no, Monica.  I'm so, so sorry this happened.  You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

Happily9

Oh, Monica, I am soooo sorry.  If you need to talk or vent feel free to message me.  Sorry again. 

raes19

So sorry you are going through this. You know we are all here for you if you need anything. At least you know you can get pregnant, with some people that is the hardest part. Just stay positive and it will happen.

kks4471

I'm so sorry Monica   Try to keep your chin up, you'll have a bundle of joy some time in the future!

CD2011

That's terrible, but it will happen for you when the time is right. Just keep your spirits up! My aunt had I think 3 miscarriages, and now she has 4 healthy children ranging from 4-24!! Just give Lucy lots of hugs and kisses in the meantime

emierose

I am so sorry Monica.. I just had a friend go through the same experience
I had a conversation with my former OB a few years ago when I was going through some problems and was worried about fertility, and was told that many women have about 3 miscarriages before having a full-term pregnancy. However, the majority of those women never realize it because it happens so early, and they aren't aware they are pregnant yet. Not that you would feel better by hearing that.. but just to know you aren't alone can sometimes make it less horrible.
I know you will be pregnant again, when your body is ready for it. Till then, lots of hugs, know that we are all here for you!

Edited for wording.

vibolemily

Oh Monica!  I just logged on and read this!  I am so sorry to hear that.  I hope you are able to stay positive.  We are all here to support you!

kevinandmonica2011

Thank you so much everyone!  I can't tell you how much I appreciate your positive thoughts, prayers and support.  You all are wonderful!!!

acmj11

Oh, Monica, I'm so sorry! Hopefully your prayers are answered soon!  You know we're all here if you need anything!

whereismymind32

I'm so sorry, Monica! Don't lose hope. We're all thinking of you.

kevinandmonica2011

Thanks, ladies!  It's been a rough week... had a super drunken meltdown Thursday night, followed by the worst hangover ever on Friday... but I think I needed that and I am finally starting to feel a little better.  Thank you so much for all of the kind words, love and paryers... and support!!!  We'll be trying again soon.