Some background: I'm an audio engineer, and my main job is running monitor mixes for the band and vocalists at one of those ridic huge megachurch. I don't really get along with the guy who does front of house (what the audience hears) and he seems to think I'm incapable of doing my job. I think he is a small-minded douchecanoe. So there's that.
I was approached by my boss today and he told me another employee is quitting, some guy in the video department. When he asked how do I think that affects me, I had no idea. But then remembered that guy has an audio background and usually fills in for the aforementioned douchecanoe when he is sick or on vacation. Apparently, this will now fall on me. Starting tomorrow night.
I already have awful anxiety in the position I currently hold. This new one is a million times worse. Just knowing I will be judged so hard from the beginning makes it a trillion times even worse than that. Granted, if I "pass", I'll likely also get a raise. But I might have 12 panic attacks in the process.
It's hard to explain without writing a book, but it's a lot of pressure and is freaking me out.