so I just had to wake up from this horrible, horrible nightmare!!!!
First I was running late (as usual for me) that I didn't have time to do my make up. Then I get to my venue and somehow my dress is flimsy and aqua blue with red, green and yellow stripes that formed a V at the chest. I'm about to walk down the aisle and the setup is wrong. Somehow the place shrunk and chairs and table are not where we had discussed. I take a look around to take in the moment but it is just horrible, it doesn't even look like a wedding, it looks like it was put together in 5 minutes. Remains from the prior days little kid party are left, big speaker boxes with red happy birthday streamers. My bouquet is hideous, tied with a red glittery ribbon and all I remember is agreeing to having this (mind you my wedding is orange, blue and green). The song starts playing and my party, which I don't even recognize, is stopping in the middle of the aisle to take pictures with guests. I proceed to walk down, and no one is walking me, the groom is not waiting at the altar. When I'm about to reach the end he finally stands up, he was sitting with the guests, and is about to give a speech on how thankful he is. But I finally breakdown and just start crying, this is not what I had envisioned at all!!! I scream and consistantly shake my head saying "this is not happening" and I run out. Somehow my venue converts to a hotel now and I'm in the lobby freaking out. The best man follows me and I dk who the hell he is!! He starts trying to talk me into going back and that I hurt FI, that although FI never mentions me in conversation he knows that he loves me. So I go back, determined to sort of change things to how they were planned. And I see that there aren't even many guests. And the few that are there are not even dressed for the wedding. As I go around trying to fix things I start noticing, my florist is nowhere in site, my caterer is not there and not a single table of food and now that I remember my dj or officiant were not there. But I finally see FI and he looks gorgeous!!! But it is not my FI, its some porcupine haired hottie. And I just stare at him, hoping that he reads an apology in my eyes, but he doesn't really look at me, he looks past me. His mom is there consoling him. He finally approaches me and we kiss passionately, but I notice he's practically a stranger to me. I start asking him a serious of questions and I manage to gather that he is only marrying me because he thought it was the next step, when I asked him what he thought of spending the rest of his life with me his answer was "c'mon who really thinks of that" and he continues to drink his alcohol beverage. I just stare at him in complete awe, "this is the idiot I'm marrying?" Basically he let me know that once he gets bored he'll divorce me. WOW no wonder the wedding was a disaster, it wasn't meant to be. And I finally woke up!!!
Hallelujah, it was HORRIBLE and I am glad it was just a nightmare. I wonder if this means cold feet????
Stephany
