I have to get this off my chest and I really don't want to talk to friends or my mom about it because then, it's out there. And I don't want to go to the Nest because well, it's the Nest. I have babies on the brain!! Agh!! There was a time when I never thought I would, but I think about it all the time now. I said I wanted to be married a few years before I had kids, but we're coming up on our first anniversary and I'm thinking about it. We've talked about it enough to know that it is life changing, relationship changing, hugeness and that we do want to have at least one. Chris said he's basically just waiting for me to come to him and tell him when I'm ready to start trying, although I know he thinks/would prefer later rather than sooner. The thing that makes me so scared is how much I enjoy our time now without a baby. We are so spontaneous. We come home from work and relax and say, "okay make dinner and watch a movie or go to the bar?" and then we just do whatever we feel like. We sleep in on the weekends, and if we're hungover we'll get up, make breakfast, and go back to bed. We do whatever we want whenever we want. Can we really give all of that up? When do you decide you are ready to give all of that up? Ugh, who else feels this way? Or just has advice to give or things to think about?
