F/U to my colposcopy a few weeks ago...

abbalish

Got my results today - I have CIN 3, which is basically the worst that it can be without being cancer, and apparently it's pretty aggressive, as my Pap was normal just one year ago.  I'm scheduled for a LEEP in two weeks - we had to postpone our trip to San Francisco, but whatever, health comes first.

H is away for work (as usual) and I've been an emotional wreck all day.  I am probably being overly dramatic, but I just feel like it's going to be hard living my normal life each day knowing that this is going on inside my body.

This sucks.

/vent

lauralaur

Eep I'm sorry. Many, many hugs. What's treatment like?

Ciaram22

I'm sorry. The LEEP procedure isn't too bad. I had one done 4 years ago and it really didn't start to hurt until the local anesthetic wore off. They gave me a prescription for Vicodin which just put me to sleep so I didn't feel it anymore.

Good Luck and try not to worry about it too mcuh.

missy68

I'm sorry, abbalish - I know this must be incredibly tough for you. Put all your positive energy towards getting better, and lean on your family - both old and new. God, I suck at words of wisdom. They sound good in my head but look stupid on paper. I'm thinking about you, and wishing you the best with your LEEP.
*hugs*

RachNRich

I'm sooooo sorry sweetie!! T&P's coming your way to a healthy recovery!

What happens from here? (Following the leep?)

abbalish

laura, the LEEP is this thing that basically cuts out the affected area by using an electrical current.  Shouldn't be too big of a deal although it apparently has some pretty nasty side effects that can last awhile.  Then lots of monitoring, etc.

Beachy730

I'm sorry to hear.  But I am also happy to hear that it isn't cancer.  I had to look up the Leep procedure to see if its what I had, and I'm still not sure.  But if its not the same then I had something very similar, and it really isn't as bad as you expect it to be. 

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I'm sorry to hear about that. I've been through the LEEP, and all the subsequent doctor's appointments. I was scared shiitless, but the procedure itself wasn't that bad. But, I asked to be knocked out completely, so I wouldn't have to worry about feeling anything.

Mine was the beginning stages of cervical cancer, and they got it all with the LEEP (after a few irritating colposcopies). PM me if you want to talk or vent. I know what you're going through and how much it sucks. Plus it helps to vent to someone who isn't family or a super cose friend since they might freak out more than you (that's how my family was, anyway).

abbalish

Thanks guys - it feels good to just tell people about this, since I don't really feel comfortable talking about it to most of the people I see on a daily basis.  I truly appreciate the support.

I just wish H were here this week, I could use him right about now.  Luckily I was able to schedule the LEEP for a week that he'll be home so I won't have to be alone for that.

I'm just worried, because the doctor said that since it's apparently so fast-moving, that there's a higher chance that the LEEP won't get all of it   UGH.

RachNRich

Have you gotten to talk to your H yet?

abbalish

Oh yes, I've cried his ear off several times throughout the day.  He feels terrible that he had to be away this week so now I am just trying not to make him feel worse.

RachNRich

It's great that you've been able to talk to him at least; I bet he's hating being gone more than anything right now! Keep you're head up, and let me know if you need to talk. I know how scary uncertainty can be when it's your health on the line. 

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Abba the doc told me the same thing, and they were able to get it all. Before my LEEP my mom told me not to let myself think about the "what ifs" and instead tell myself that this won't defeat me, it's just another bump in the road. I was really depressed over it and having her support helped a lot. It is a really uncomfortable thing to talk about, but if you have that one friend or family member that always knows what to say to cheer you up, lean on them for a pep talk.

PsyDet 2155

I'm so sorry to hear about the results (and that your husband is away after you digest the news).  Giving you an e-hug and hoping the recovery process from LEEP won't be too painful.

smokeybailey

The LEEP doesn't hurt your body that much, it just hurts your mind.  Don't worry.  They caught it early and will probalby be able to get it all.  If not, you will have a second one.

I know that you are scared but you are going to be okay.  I have my vibrator on full speed and am sending awesome get well vibes your way.

{{good, good, good vibrations}}

baystateapple

*HUGS*  I am so sorry, Abbalish

shoegal715

Oh honey, I'm sorry you're going through this. I know it's scary, but you are young, healthy, and in control of your health. It's great you get regular paps, because now they know what's going on and can fix it. 

You will be JUST fine. I've had friends go through with this, and as scary as it is, they are perfect again, and it's all just a bad blip of bad luck. 

Stay positive, be kind to yourself, and try to distract yourself with fun things. 

Stackeye210

Aw abs..........I'm so sorry to hear about that.  Let me know if you need anything!  I know we haven't "officially" met, but I'm right around the corner if you ever need something or someone.

abbalish

stacks, are we still on for the first weekend in November?

Stackeye210

DEFINITELY!!!!!

Wrkn925

I've been through two colps. and one LEEP.
It was scary and a little painful.
BUT, after the LEEP I've had all clear paps. It will all be over soon, and it's better once you don't have to worry anymore.
My doc told me the same thing about the stages, and said there was more than one spot, and he got it all.

Mrs.B6302007

Really sorry to hear this.  Thoughts and prayers for a quick and easy procedure and recovery for you and peace of mind as well.

thesuninherhead

I'm so glad that you had the examinations and got to the bottom of this now, before it got any nastier. I can't imagine how scary it must be for you, but do try to reframe the situation as much as you can- the fact that you've found out about this now is really a great thing, as much as the whole situation does suck.

 

*hugs* to you. Best of luck with the procedure.