and now I feel like a terrible person.
I haven't seen her since last Christmas Eve when we talked for all of 5 minutes at church. She let me know when she got engaged a year and a half ago but said she was getting married this winter down south. Fast forward from not hearing from her for about 6 months (I called her when FI proposed) and I received a mass Facebook invite to her reception in two weeks time. It was two hours away on a Friday night and I was invited to the bar for 9:30 at night. Based upon the fact that I am still tight with everyone we hung out with in high school I knew none of them were invited so I wouldn't know many people other than her parents and brothers. So I didn't go. I was hoping the weather would be bad so I could use that as an excuse but of course it was perfect.
I now feel as though our relationship will never resurrect, but I also don't think she was trying that hard. Maybe if I had gone it would have? I just feel weird about it. Sorry about the LJ post.