I have been so stressed with everything with Edmund, even though he is doing great. And so frustrated with H always being gone at 1 of the 2 rehearsals that he has been going to that I completely forgot that today was his birthday. I don't have anything for him. we don't have any money to spare so I can go buy him something. I'm trying to think of something I can make for him for when he gets home tonight after his opening night at his show. He isn't going to get home until nearly midnight tonight and I just feel bad that I forgot to do something for him when he has been awesome about doing things for me.