I'm totally starting to have freak out moments about my dress and it's not even here yet. I remember them saying it would take about 6 months and I thought I bought it in June, but I just looked at my receipt and I bought it May 27. So, technically, it's already been 6 months. I'm calling tomorrow. If I have the issues I've had with the BM dresses, I will seriously lose it.
Anyhow, I'm beginning to wonder if I chose the right one.
I loved it the day I bought it, but I've gone back and forth with feeling like I bought it too soon. I bought it on the spur of the moment and at the first shop I went to. Whenever I watch SYTTD or glance through BRIDES, I see these gorgeous gowns and I second guess mine. I know I'm not supposed to look, but I'm addicted to the show and my magazines, so stopping isn't going to happen or fix the problem. It's the style I always wanted (a-line, dropped waist), but more simple than I always imagined. I feel like maybe it's missing something. Basically, I'm totally freaking out. I want it to be here, but at the same time, I kind of don't because I'm worried I will regret my decision. I worry that people will think it's too plain, not pretty enough, or they'll be disappointed. Some of JP's family, whom I love dearly, are ridiculously wealthy and/or prominent (millionaires, real estate moguls, mayor, etc.) and I worry what they'll think. Why, why, why do I let their non-existent, at least yet, opinions get to me? However, above all else and more than anything, I worry about JP having any of these feelings. I'm so worried that I'll walk down the aisle, he'll see me and hate my dress, although of course he'd never say that.I feel like I'm going to pick it up and just cry because it's not what I wanted after all.
Side note, I'm not posting this to look for sympathy or compliments. I'm just almost embarrassed in a sense to tell anyone else about these thoughts. I feel like some criticised me for buying it too soon and I don't want to hear, "I told you so." Literally, I've been going back and forth with these feelings for the last couple of months, but I haven't admitted them to anyone. So I really just needed to get it out, that's all.
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