I am having a very difficult time decided who to have walk me down the aisle. My family is pushing me to have my father, but he wasn't around for nearly all of my childhood, resurfacing after I graduated high school. Since then, we meet up about once or twice a year for a dinner and are trying to patch things up and have a better relationship, but it is still on shaking ground at the moment.
When I was 10, my mother died so my sisters and I moved in with an aunt and uncle on her side of the family. That uncle has been more of a father figure and helped raise me but I feel like if I choose him it would be a slap in the face of my biological father who seems to be trying to be more of a father lately.
I considered having both. One on each arm, but there has always been a big family feud between these two sides so, frankly, I'm worried about them all being in the same building together, let alone the same aisle.
I had thought I had a solution by asking my grandfather (my dad's dad) who has been the only constant throughout my entire life. He declined because he didn't feel comfortable doing it if my father was present.
I am now 27 years old and have been living on my own and supporting myself for the past 9 years. Would it be horrible to walk myself? All the family and friends I have talked to about this issue are appalled at the thought. They say this would only offend everyone and not solve anything. I would have loved to have someone support me and give me away but it doesn't seem like a feasible option at this point.
Please give me your feedback and ideas. I am running out of time and sanity.