I am too embarrassed to talk to a friend about this. Sooo I guess I am confiding in internet strangers. My FI and I made a homemade video ---> just a little backstory for you.FI just got home from a business trip last night and when he got in, he said he was going to go take a shower. 45 minutes go by and I called his name... then I heard the water start. I decided to join him in the shower and the door is locked. It struck me as odd. So, he opened the door and I said WTF? Why is the door locked? We never lock the door. Then when I went into our bedroom after I saw that our movie was in the vcr. Turns out he was jerking off to our homemade video. Why wouldn't he just have sex with me instead?Is this not messed up? I asked him why he did it and he said that he assumed that since it was so late I wouldn't want to do it, i don't think I buy it.