This will be my first and last post. I came here hoping for an empathetic ear and opinion. And while a few people were compassionate and nicely helped me realize my errors in thinking, many of you are just mean! After reading the responses I do realize that I need to get over it and just be happy for both of us. Sorry for being emotional and having a moment of bridal panic publicly, its a mistake I'll never make again. Go find someone else to berate please.