Ok, I'm bummed. The whole situation with my MOH has actually made me feel unexcited (even worse, that I don't want to deal with it at all) about anything wedding related. I just wish we were already married.
I haven't spoken to her yet, because I didn't want to have a big serious conversation about what a crappy friend she's been and ruin her holidays. And I know I need to talk to her, but I'm also scared that once I do, this dreadful feeling won't go away because one of two things will happen:
1) We work it out, but I still have in the back of my head that she's just trying to appease me or
2) We end the friendship
Plus, I can't even call her at home because I don't want FI to hear the conversation because then his feelings would be hurt too. I might just have to call her now and get it off my chest....