Preface: On a scale of 1-10 I know this is not a 10, but it is something I'm struggling with.
Y'all know that 6let has been in speech classes for 3 wks. At the end of his last appt. the therapist says "I think this is something different than what we were dealing with. It appears more to be apraxia." She goes on to explain that basically the mind can't tell the mouth how to form the word. It felt like no big deal. She gave me a website to look at and sent us on our way.
First of all I look at the .com site which is all about autism. So after that breakdown I realize that it's .org.
The site starts talking about brain lesions and learning disabilities and special education. I thought we were just looking at what longer speech therapy, but now I'm left wondering if this is going to be a lifelong struggle.
I'm pissed that the therapist just gave me a website and sent me on my way. You know that one website leads to another to another and how Dr. Google can turn a runnny nose into imminent death. So I've spent a week going from denial to tears to denial to reading to denial to tears. I have a million questions but I'm afraid I'm just going to cry through this whole appt.
Now I've also realized that we only have 5 mins at the end of therapy. I screwed up and should have called ahead for more time or e-mailed the questions so she could be prepared. I've been a mess all morning. Hopefully I can cry it out this morning and not do it later.