So, last year when I bought my dress, I was smack in the middle of amazing progress with my weight loss. I'd lost 40lbs at the time, and felt confident that I'd be that size, if not a bit smaller, by the time of my dress fitting.
Well, I know I'm not the first, nor will I be the last, to be wrong about that. I actually gained a little weight back this past year. I knew it happened, and I tried to manage it with my workouts and diet, but since I was doing this health thing solo, it was really hard to keep disciplined as time went on. So a little weight came back. So tonight is my first fitting, and today, like a fool, I put my dress on here at home just to see if I could still fit in it. Good news is I can get it on -- but I can't zip the back like I was able to before. There's wiggle room in the front, but when I reach behind to zip it closed, I just couldn't.
Now, I know I want the zipper pulled out and replaced with a lace up back (I hope they can do it with the bodice I have). So, hopefully this will be salvaged. But I feel like a complete failure with my goals to be healthier and a bit smaller on my wedding day. I know I'm not alone and many brides have been in my shoes...but it still feels pretty bad. I'm now dreading my fitting tonight. My undergarments probably don't even fit anymore (I bought them a few months ago). So odds are I'll have to go a size up there, so that just feels like insult to injury. I wanted someone to go with me, but now I'm glad I'm going alone for this first run, because that would just be awful to be standing in front of my mom or BM and having a professional confirm that I am, indeed, too heavy for what I brought in. *sigh* I know it'll work out in the long run, but I just needed to unload my feelings before heading out to the fitting.
"Love it will not betray you, dismay or enslave you,
It will set you free..."
~Mumford and Sons
