I am in love. Have been for 2.5 years. My BF and I have known each other for years and after both being divorced we met up and started a relationship. I made the huge mistake of getting pregnant (BTW it was planned because at the time we were so head over heels it just seemed right and I had just turned 30 and was very ready to have a child- yes I know I'm an idiot). At the time I just figured we both loved each other and would eventually get around to getting married.
Well now here I am with a 10 mth old baby and a man who says that he loves me and wants to raise his son with me but is not ready for marriage. Bascially he told me that marrying me scares him because he says that he is not happy with the way I have reacted to certain situations. I have been jealous and somewhat controlling of him.
I have had my "a-ha" moment and realize that I need to stop being jealous. I know that I cannot control him and the decesions he makes. I know I have to just let it go and trust him. He has a very friendly/flirty personality and that is what attracted me to him in the first place so I need to accept that. As far as I know he has never cheated in a relationship and I have no evidence that he has ever cheated on me. So starting immediately I have decided to stop being jealous.
However, in the back of my mind I just keep thinking it is too late and that he will never want to marry me. I don't want to stay stuck in a dead end relationship. Any advice is greatly appreciated.
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