I just needing to come vent.
I have trouble making friends and so the very few that I have are important to me. When I asked my best friend to be my bridesmaid and she accepted I was overjoyed. When she asked to step down, of course I was upset, but I told her I was completely fine and of course I understand that she'll be busy. Even though her excuses for being "busy" were paper thin and really it was just she didn't want to be a bridesmaid anymore. I let it go, because she's my best friend I'm not going to lose her over something so trivial.
After I said that I hadn't expected her to completely shut down on everything wedding. I'm not the type to go on and on about my wedding, but every once in a while I would like an opinion on something like prospective dresses etc. Anytime I mention anything she just huts down and turns the conversation into about why she doesn't believe in weddings.
I realize that that's just how she is and I still love her, but it just hurts me that I can't talk to my best friend about any of my wedding. And it's not that she's jealous, because she's SOOO not that type. She really just doesn't believe in weddings, but I feel like that shouldn't mean she should ignore me when I'm just asking how she thinks a dress would look.
I listen to her go on about Physics and the "hot guys" at the gym, when I don't particularly care. Is it so much to ask for to want her to just pretend to listen and nod?