I LOVE war movies and/or military movies, till one day i had a horrible nightmare that my FI was shot, it didnt help that my room mate starting banging on the ceiling, to hush the ppl upstairs, rite when he was shot in my dream. I told him and my family about it and everyone agreed it would be a wise idea for me to stop watching any movie dealing with war or mainly about military. Im happy to say i havent watched one in over 6 months. With the exception of the show "army wives" i love it to much to let go.
For some reason im having similar nightmares, but in my dreams, now, he hasnt died. One he was in the hospital in a comma, and another he was missing limbs, and the latest one (last night) his arms were so severly burned and i couldnt even touch his right arm cuz it hurt him so much. I cant talk to my FI about it because he is already stressed about his deployment. But im afraid to go to sleep cuz these dreams or so bad. Im to the point i want to cry cuz i dont know who i can talk to about this and the dreams are getting more realistic.
I understand that there is always the possiblilty something could happen on his deployment. And im fully prepared to handle it if something does, only injury though. i cant handle these dreams much longer.