Any one here every hit that point when you feel TOTALLY overwhelmed by life as a whole? I wouldn't post this anywhere on here, but I completely trust you guys. I just feel like I'm at the point I just want to curl up at home and not leave the house for a few days because there is just SO MUCH going on that I am done dealing wtih it all....
1) My good friend left her commonlaw husband, and took her 2 year old daughter wtih her. He started putting pressure on her, and she freaked out, and overdosed on her medication. She is fine physically but we're all worried about her and getting her back into a good mental state again.
2) My leg... for those of you following, enough said
3) FI has been complaining a lot about his job again lately, and wants to quit and go somewhere else... atleast this time he is working on the 'somewhere else' before talking about quitting with anyone besides me. ANYWAY... we live on site at his work... and he has NO savings... so in order for him to change jobs, I need to shell out the deposit out of my savings account for the security deposit on a new place. Trying to do this without touching the wedding account (I can't afford to be taking money out of there for ANY reason right now or we won't be able to make payments needed for the wedding).
4) Trying to manage debt is stressing me out big time. To some of you, this one might just sound like whining but let me explain... I have NEVER had debt... no loans, no unpaid ccs, bought everything in cash... I grew up in a family that struggled fiancially and swore that wouldn't be me... fast forward to now, I have no debt and a savings account... FI comes into the picture with cc debt, car payments, a line of credit, no savings, etc... We aren't failing to make payments or anything, but the act of juggling it all and getting it paid off stresses me big time.
5) EVERYONE IS HAVING KIDS! Seriously! Is it something in the water? Their kids don't affect me, no.... but the fact that I've found out that I can't does! The treatments for my cancer mean no having kids of my own... FI and I plan on adopting, but that doesn't make it easier to see EVERYONE with pregnant bellies and little babies...
6) Work is a CONSTANT source of stress right now, and although I know I should just let it go, I'm finding it hard. This place is a horribly negative environment full of drama, backstabbing and highschool carry on. I come home 10 times more stressed every day then when I walk into the building.
I am seriously sitting here right now, watching the clock, just wishing it was already home time. I feel like I want to punch something and cry all at the same time... I have a business meeting to go to tonight (that I DON'T want to go to)... I just have WAY too much on my plate... FI tries, he does, but he's so clueless on how to deal wtih a lot of it (I love him, but based on track record, he's not touching our finances... I have tried that once before, and the month I let him control it meant his acct was $1000 overdraft!).
Just needed to get that all out I think!