So... I feel like a totally ungrateful b!tch of a daughter!
My biological mother passed away 10 years ago and when she passed I had an ok relatioship with my stepmom. I remember back then saying that I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to be happy or that would feel like something was missing when I got married (yes, at 15 I thought of those things) and my step mom told me something may be missing but she was going to be there.
Now I'm getting married in 8 months, and my stepmom is the most wonderful woman ever. After my mom passed I was rotten- like really a nasty kid for a couple years and she loved me anyway more than I thought a woman could love a child or young adult that she didn't give birth to.
She has been wonderful, and supportive and caring. She hugged me when I cried over my mother, and held my hand after my first break up, did my hair and make up for prom. She always treats me like I'm hers and she never thought other wise... but as my wedding draws nearer I can't help but miss my mom. I am so afraid that I am going to cry on my wedding day and when she asks why I won't want to tell her its because I miss my mom so much. I don't want her to think that she hasn't been wonderful, or that I don't love her. I am her daughter, she is my mom...but I still miss my biological mother.