So I made plans to visit my dad's grave tomorrow because it's his birthday and he died six months ago so the wounds are fresh. I then was planning on attending a Brides Against breast Cancer event in my hometown. I planned to do all of this with my sister and we were both pretty excited.
Things changed though. My sister is in college and studying for a really big exam. She didn't realize how much she needed to study - okay, no big deal, she just won't attend BABC with me. So one reason I'm sad is because I'm going alone and would have loved to spend time with her (she's be so busy with school and sometimes it's hard to get her to visit).
we then planned to visit my dad's grave and my mom said she wanted to bring her new girlfriend. I've only met her once and my sister has never met her. I was kind of hurt that my mom wanted to bring someone new to a very personal affair. I told her that now would not be a good time but it still bothered me that she wanted to make it a social affair - she did this with his funeral. She was so angry about where he was to be buried because all of her friends couldn't come now and she basically pouted the whole time. I almost want to tell her not to come (they were going through a divorce when he passed away and it was not an amicable parting of ways) but I know it's not my place. So that's my second reason for being sad and why I feel this ache in my chest.
I know I need to grow up and get over it. I guess I'm just venting and sad.
