Hi! I apologize in advance for this rant.
This is my second marriage. My fiance has never been married before. A little bit of background, first. We met in 9th grade. My family moved out here (Utah) and we lived here for a year. My fiance, J, and I met at school and started dating. At the end of the school year, my family decided to move back to Minnesota. We tried the long distance thing for a while, but in high school... it just didn't work. J and I stayed friends though.
I ended up marrying another man pretty much right after high school. Big mistake, but I digress. Anyway, we ended up getting a divorce, and I ended up moving back to Utah, as I have friends and family here. J and I got back together. He's been my best friend for 10 years, and it wasn't surprising to anyone that we got together.
Skip forward almost three years, and here we are. J and I have been engaged for about a year now. Unfortunately, we've put all of our planning for the wedding off until recently. A large part of this is financial issues. Gotta love those! We currently have our wedding planned for June 17th. Unfortunately, everything is falling apart.
I'm starting to wonder if the wedding is actually going to happen at this point. I have my dress, and we have the tuxes and bridesmaid's dresses figured out. We have the venue (a friend is letting us use her backyard). That's about all we have. We are on an extremely tight budget, and plan on doing almost everything ourselves. My mom is making our wedding cake (which will probably turn out much more yummy than some of the horror stories I've heard...), we're going to do the food ourselves, etc.
The problem is, we don't even have an officiant. My fiance is Catholic. I am not. And on top of that, I've been married before, and even have a child from that previous marriage. We've been trying to work with a Priest, but they keep putting us off, and now there's not enough time to get everything figured out before June. We're talking about different options, but I'm getting to the point where all I want to do when thinking of the wedding is cry.
I know that realistically, we shouldn't have set a date before we had an officiant. My family is all coming from various places across the US, though, and we needed to set a date around when they could be here.
I don't even know what to do anymore. There is so much more that just seems to be falling apart with the wedding, but this is already a little long, so maybe I'll make those into other posts later. Any happy words, or advice is greatly appreciated. I'm at my wits end!