On the weekend my friend's engagement photos came in and they are absolutely amazing. I'm in total agreement in investing in a good photographer and for that matter a good make-up artist too.
So, I see those photos and am so happy for my friend but then proceed to get really upset. I spoke to my BF about it and he asked if it was because I wanted to get married and am jealous that I'm not. It doesn't feel like I'm jealous of her getting married at all.
I've learned a lot being around her wedding, being around TK and making it about the marriage and not all the stuff that goes with the wedding. As long as I've had this friend she has been more of a follower and has not really developed tastes of her own, she tends to follow what is trendy and in style at the moment.
So, I see these photos and as amazing as they are I see the photographer, I don't see my friend at all in them. i have a feeling that this could happen at their wedding as well. I guess I feel more jealous that she has access to this amazing photographer, I likely won't due to expenses, and it seems wasted in a way.
Do I make any sense at all? Please tell me just to grow up about this. I have felt this way for years about my friend, but every once and awhile something puts me over the edge.