I interviewed for two jobs last week, and I felt really, really good about how I'd done. I was asked for a second interview for one right away, and the other one told me that they didn't do second interviews but that they'd call me as soon as my background check cleared. I was supposed to hear by the end of the week.
I just got a two-sentence letter informing me that I didn't get either position. I have literally applied to over 50 residential treatment centers, private practices, schools, non-profits, and absolutely anything that could be remotely called therapy. I have a job right now that's roughly in the field, but I don't get to do actual therapy, and it doesn't qualify to get me hours for licensure, which I need to start doing in the next month. It also gets me roughtly 16 hours a week of work, which isn't exactly going to pay the bills. Oh, and my insane student loans kick in mid-November.
I just feel so defeated, like a total failure. The worst part is that I thought that I'd completely ROCKED both interviews, and I felt really confident that I'd hear from one. I just feel like I have no f-ing clue what to do now. There's no real point to this post, but I don't feel like I can call anyone about it because I don't want to actually talk about it. Typing is different, I suppose :P