I'm fully freaking out

YHFoxtrot

Guys... I'm aobut 40 days away and I'm having daily and nightly panic attacks, I'm iritable and overly sensitive and I"m just not coping well.

I realize I have a lot on my plate, I'm closing on a home next Friday, I'm trying to finalize the details of my wedding AND I'm trying to lose weight with very little success....

I have no idea what to do to help me cope. I have so much to do but for some reason I can't figure out what to tackle so I just sit here and stress and have panic attacks.

I haven't been on the board much due to the slowness and the fact that it keeps crashing my computer but I do miss it here... and I think I need the knotties now more than ever to assure me it's all going to be ok. I"m literally sitting in my bed trying to figure ou HOW to deal and figure out WHAT to do and I have no idea. I'm like frozen.

Ugh. I hate this feeling.

Thanks for letting me vent.

mikeschickie

First: 10/3/2009

Last: 12/12/2009

Hi. I think you should drink a glass of wine and listen to this song  by ingrid michaelson:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PUDAiBmQnpw

Just take it one day at a time. It will all turn out beautifully!

SaraandBenjamin

I agree with the glass of wine.

This may sounds ridiculous, but do you have a planner? I use mine for work and wedding and it seriously helps keep me sane. I need to do lists on there and then I know EXACTLY what I have left to do...instead of laying in bed awake at night going "Oh fuuuuuck...I forgot to hire ceremony musicians!".

You do have a LOT on your plate my love. Maybe a little organizer would help?

Let me know if I can do anything for you!!!

In the meantime, pour the wine!

YHFoxtrot

Ugh girls... I'm gonna pour some wine. I don't have any white wine which is my preference but red wine will have to do. I think I'm gonna start boxing up some clothing from my closet so I can feel productive. I just see boxes EVERYWHERE between the wedding and the move and it's making me twitch.

Thanks girls... Sorry to be so negative...

Sara, did you contact tropics entertainment for your ceremony music??? They are great and hve SOOO many options on Marischen music...

LAKE21

I say take a deep breath, treat yourself to something, and put everything on pause so that you can have a little while to put things into perspective and relax.

Your wedding day is 40 days away and there are a bunch of little tid bits that will come up but come day of it will be amazing and you will be a beautiful bride!

Your allowed to be irritable and sensitive. Your wedding only happens once and if you're A type like me then it should be as close to perfect as it can be!

Congrats on buying a home! At least now all you have to do is sign papers right? Buying a home is a huge accomplishment! At least to me it is! Just imagine, after a beautiful wedding you'll have a gorgeous home to go to to start your new life with your hubby. Amazing!

And as for losing weight....you have lost 16 lbs! I can't get the scale to move past the 7 I've lost. 16 lbs is a great start and I know that it's tough during the holidays but you can do it!

As for coping...focus on one task at a time. Maybe if you make a list of what needs to be finalized then you can go one by one and check them off? I'm not sure if that will help but you're way too sweet to be frantic.

Everything will be great!!

Ven1

Ok deep breath, everything is going to work out!

You have the BEST vendors, what other wedding tasks do you have left?

I know you have a DOC so maybe this is a good time to ask her some advice or if there are any tasks pending she can help you to complete them. I know it's a lot with the house and wedding. Just try to make a to do list and work one thing at a time, concentrate only on 1 thing and then move on. Trust me I know how hard it it, I was trying to finish invitations for over a month and nothing. 

Tongs of love and hugs, be strong

Lacey36

Hey babe! first take a deep breath. things will all flow just fine. Next focus on the closing thats next week and then finish the wedding planning. Im sure you have most of your things ready, and its just little things now to do. As for the weight loss, Im sure you look beautiful now and will look 10x's more the wedding day not stress out over the weight loss you will lose what you want and even if its not by the wedding day, Matt still wants to marry you for who you are not what you look like. Hope you have sweet dreams tonight and forever!!

YHFoxtrot

Thanks girls. I think you are all right and I know I just need to breathe because it will all work out, I am just anxiety prone and with all that's happening, it's kind of scary and freaks me out.

LIke, when I looked at it like this I Lost it.

Next Friday - Closing

Following Friday  - Christmas Day

Following Friday - New Years Day

Then it's 3 weeks til the wedding. WTF??? Lol.

As for the weight loss so far, It's true I have lost 16lbs BUT... that is since March, I've been working at it for 10 months!! I'd have thought I'd be at my goal a long time ago. Thing is that I put ON weight right after getting engaged so I was way over weight to begin with... My goal is not that far of it's maybe 12lbs but I can't seem to get there and I'm a stress eater so yeah... it's hard.

But I'm having some wine right now and  I"m gonna go through my to do list to see what else I can cross off (I have a list in my bio)

We did get some things done today... we bought frames for table numbers lol... that was a BIG thing ha ha ha. Seriously it's all small stuff it just SEEMS like a lot.

But I need to get some perspective and know how it's all good things and exciting stuff!

melimagu

Jaime, you live in Miami right? Can I help with anything? Maybe calling people, getting you packed, running little errands you may not have time for?!?! Let me know... we're here for you!!!

In the meantime, I agree - pour some wine or eat some dessert & remember everything will fall into place

YHFoxtrot

NOOOO No dessert! lol!!!

I really appreciate the offers to help. I wish it were the kind of thing were I could delegate tasks but it's really all on me to just get things done.

It's just really overwhelming and I'm just freaked out by all the huge changes I'm about to face. I just have to keep reminding myself that it's all good stuff...

Matt's been trying to teach me the art of deep breathing lol but then he tells me to stop freaking out and that actually makes me more nutso! lol!!!

silverrose

Just breathe and take it one project at a time.  Figure out what the highest priority is at the moment and work on that.  Work on one thing at a time then when you finish it, move on to the next task.  This way, you aren't trying to take on too much at once. 

You do have a lot on your plate but you are right, they are all good and exciting things. 

In the end, the closing will be over with.  The wedding stuff will get done and you will be married to a great guy and in a new house.  That's what's important.

If there is anything I can help with, don't be a stranger.

MIABRIDENTAMPA

Honey, I completely understand your stresses! One of my friends is getting married in feb, and she stopped by tonight, only to remind me that less than 5 months after her wedding, I will be walking down the aisle. I feel like the anti-bride. I dont have the house full of stuff, nor do I feel I will ever have all the stuff everyone else has stored in their house for the wedding. No stresses, you are NOT overweight, the closing will be perfect, and the next 40 days will be OKAY! Drink some wine, and if you want to be really bad, do like me, I am drinking a beer(ughh).lol..... I am just so over Xmas shopping!

bisabelm

I love you pretty lady and everything is going to turn out great. Take one thing at a time and before you know it..it will all be done and you will have more then enough time to relax and enjoy it all. I know it's been said but if you need anything let me know!

eskiimobby

I don't have anything really more than what everyone else said. We're all here for you to vent to so you can get it off your chest - and that helps some. You're strong though so you'll pull through and look back and laugh at getting stressed! That's what I always do anyways.

Tiffayqp12

Jaimes--- enjoy your wine lady and make a list.  I am off for the next 4 weeks and will be here in Miami so if you need anything at all just let me know and I am more than happy to come and help you.

Your move will go fantastically and things will work out perfectly.  

You will lose the weight you want, but HONESTLY I think you look awesome and beautiful.  Some of this stress might not be helping, so really do try to relax a little. (I know it is hard).

courtneybrooke921

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

everything will get done. you look gorgeous - seriously thin (I just saw you a couple of weeks ago!!) - it's all going to come together, I promise. No more panic attacks - breath, make to do lists and worry about the most important stuff.

like I always say, at the end of the day you'll be married to Matt no matter what (and you'll be wearing the  most gorgeous wedding dress ever).

zobo410

I totally agree with Sara and having a planner or notebook. Having a list and then scratching things off it can be so good. It will keep you sane with what you still need to do. Just don't spill your wine on it

pharmdmiami

::::hugs:::

goldie3474

aww hunny... what can we help with? I might be the one hand bandit at the moment but I can make phone calls and emails for you

questvc

RELAX!!
Its just to much at one time to take..But you look like a girl that can take it all!!!
Keep following your to do list.
Scratch things off and move to next one big thing is finish what you start that way you dont have to continue to go back and forth and everything gets done.
With paking and the move take it one at a TIME!! If your getting gifts place them all on one side make it a gift wall or room that way you dont loose anything and you keep it all together. On packing the other things place them also in another room keeping it all out of the way and together. When it comes time for the move just take it a room a day unpack and move to next. I move often for some dumb reason and with kids I think I have become a PRO at moving...lol

Lots of hugs and kisses your way

YHFoxtrot

Thank you everyone for the kind words and support. I know it's going to be ok, I just have to stay organized, BREATHE and know it WILL get done.

With the latest news surrounding my venue though, it's kind of a mess... so yeah, I'm just trying to stay calm and know it will all work out.

murrc2

There you are...I knew I would find your post for how I was feeling

As I sit here with a 2nd or 3rd glass of wine (you know me), I am trying not to freak, but my list seems so long and I agree, people ask to help but its stuff I need to decide and do myself (which don't get me wrong, I enjoy) but yes, the days are getting closer and the holidays do not help.  We got our tree on Thursday and I'm crossing my fingers for decorating tomorrow.  The good news is, I printed all my Table #s tonight but they are no where near done, still need to cut and stock to cardstock, emboss, and fiinish the wine corks, bottle labels and wine bottles to complete them...it never ends.

If you want to get together for a drink (with all that time we have) let me know!  Through my stress, I think about you b/c I know you are right there!

Love ya Girlie!
Cathy