I am a huge animal lover. This morning when I checked on my hamster, she was shaking like crazy and I noticed a large, tube-looking thing coming out of her.. umm.. backside. I started crying and googling what could be wrong with her. I went to work and called the vet. I should have just called off because the vet doesn't treat small animals, so I had to make an appointment at a vet farther away and leave work to take her. The vet said she had a prolapsed rectum (I won't go into details because it is gross). She said she could either try to fix it but, because the tissue was damaged, it would most likely not work and she would die a slow, painful death. She recommended I have her put to sleep. I agreed and now my little baby girl is gone. I was pretty much a mess about it all day and I am requesting prayer for:
1. God to forgive me for agreeing to have her put to sleep. I didn't want to go against His will, but I couldn't watch her suffer. I believe it actually was His will for me to make the decision I made. He wouldn't want her to suffer either.
2. Me to be at peace
3. My co-workers to forgive me for getting so worked up about a hamster. I know it seems very silly for me to be this sad about it, especially when so many people are dealing with such pain and devastation.
Thanks for reading this. Please forgive me for allowing this to bother me and for bothering you all with something so trivial. I am just hurting and I know that God listens to our prayers and is with us even if our feelings seem silly.