So I broke down and emailed the social worker

AuburnBride06 · June 2010

Now we wait for a response. I think I'm starting to go insane. Most of you probably aren't familiar with what's going on with Davez (a SAIFer) but a recent update has made my mind go into very scary territory.....further research into what is wrong with me and trying again. Its a crazy, stupid thought, but this wait is killing me.

Yellow_Daisy · June 2010

I need some back story Auburn. What's going on?

AuburnBride06 · June 2010

Davez has had tons of losses, like me and only a little bit to explain them. She has an amazing opportunity with a new doctor and she just may finally get some answers and a chance to carry another baby to term. The doctor is in the same city as my niece, and my mind has been wandering. I 100% want to adopt, but the waiting and everything is bringing the depression back into my life again. I have followed this doctor's blog for years and always wondered if he would be able to help me. So I'm thinking crazy thoughts.

For the last couple weeks, I've been trying to keep myself from emailing my social worker or attorney for fear of being a pest. After reading about Davez news, I broke down and emailed her to try and see if they have gotten any b-mother action. The thought of trying again scares me, and I really thought we were done with it. Now the thought of exploring again and investing lots of time, $$$ and everything has me scared but irrationally hopeful. It would be a huge commitment considering he is in SC. I am just so desperate.

Yellow_Daisy · June 2010

Oh wow that is a lot to deal with. I am sure you aren't being a pest with the social worker. They do this all the time and probably a lot of people get nervous/anxious and want to know how things are going. That seems completely reasonable to me. Hopefully they will email you back soon.

As for the new doctor and possibly persuing treatments again that is scary, especially when you have been through what you have been through. I can't even begin to imagine the kind of strength it takes to keep trying after so many losses. Have you called the doctor? Could you maybe get in to see him? Maybe meeting with him and talking about your situation will help alleviate some of the stress and fear you are dealing with.

DavezWife · June 2010

Oh hon... you and I have talked in the past... the pain of no more is MUCH more scary to me, than the pain of loosing another. But I also have a very different POV, as I've got my Ava. This last loss (and failure of an IVF I went to ANOTHER COUNTRY TO DO...) wrecked me. Just wrecked me.
Silly "devine intervention" or not... the path fo Dr. T to Dr. L is SOMETHING, ANYTHING, I need right now in order to GET OUT OF BED in the morning.
I'm also older, 37 this month, and we decided we have a bit more time to adopt, but not much more time to try/carry one more.

FWIW... there is one spot left in the study, as of last nite.
:::pats lab seat next to me:::

See you in SC?? ;-) I have the research assist's email and phone.
I'm here if you want to talk or bich. I think of you often as well, but don't want to push my thoughts on you.

AuburnBride06 · June 2010

Davez, I can check PMs and was able to send you my email. I am just sooo scared of never being a mother. I honestly don't think my life is worth it if it never happens, someway somehow. will you send me the info too? I gotta talk to the H about this, but I am intrigued.

k-mart · June 2010

Hugs ladies. I hope you both find the answers you need. It's all a scary situation.

lovemymonkey · June 2010

hugs to you auburn! I think if you are still feeling those twinges of wanting to try again, get thee into that study!!! Davez is saving a seat for you!!!!

albjag · June 2010

Auburn- wishing you the best! I know this must be all overwhelming, but I am glad you may have a wonderful opportunity with a new doctor. Fingers crossed for you whatever route you decide to take.

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