So, I have to get this off my chest. It's killing me. I moved to Louisiana for a job last January. I was so excited and felt that I could take on the world... this was a big promotion!
Well the year turned out to be a really difficult one professionally (personally it was WONDERFUL) and lately my job has been effecting every part of my life. I'm miserable and sad all of the time and just don't know if this job is for me anymore.
Basically, yesterday my boss approached me and asked me how things were going. I laid it ALL on the table. She basically said she was shocked and had no idea (which I find SO hard to believe) and said if I leave in the middle of the semester (anytime from now until May) the project is basically shot, since I run it. Even in the meeting when I was trying to be honest about my concerns in such high responsibility position she made me feel guilty and bad about myself. She said she knows things are going poorly for me personally (which THEY'RE NOT. FI and I are great, family is great... it's just the job). I told her that wasn't true at all. That really got to me. A lot more was discussed, but I'll save you the time and details.
So, by TUESDAY I need to tell her either 1. What's bothering me about the position and how we can make it better (which I've already done ALL year and nothing has changed) OR 2. When I plan to leave.
She said if I leave mid-semester it will ruin my career because she can't give me a recommendation, but I think that's a scare tactic. I have a lot of people back in the state I'm from who support me and have told me not to worry about what she says in terms of "ruining my career."
Here's the kicker: FI has a job interview on Monday with a company back where we're from... Problem is they loved his resume so much they want to interview him but DON'T HAVE A POSITION RIGHT NOW. Ah! He also has an interview Tuesday morning for a job down here. I have an interview for a position back home on Monday afternoon... I just don't know if they're willing to push the start date back to when I would need it (end of Feb). So much unknown...
Basically, I think I'm going to tell my boss I'll give her until the end of February to find a replacement... The sucky part is they just fired the person who was working for me and if I give my notice all of the staff other than my boss will have left.
In the end I think my boss is more concerned about the project than my well being and is trying everything to scare me/guilt me into staying.... either way the decision is hard but in the end I think I need to do what I need to do and get out of there. Even if I run the risk of being unemployed in March (so scary)
Thanks for listening (if you made it this far). I just respect everyone on this board so much and I honestly feel more comfortable telling this to you than some of my IRL friends...