I have been married twice previously, divorced 1st, widowed second. The death of my second is still rough for me at times, even though it was over 7 years ago. Met my fiance 6 1/2 years ago, been engaged for 5 (!!), finally making it official next summer. There have been legit reasons why it has not happened sooner but partly I have not been totally ready. I have 2 children from previous and 2 from him. We are planning a wedding, mainly for the girls (all 4, and 3 are under age 9) and him. I find myself getting sad, stressed, jealous, frustrated, but at times excited too. I want something "different" and casual but the rest want more of a low budget typical wedding. I worry as this gets closer will be sadder for me as I do find myself remembering my last wedding, which was perfect, too often. I can't totally explain the feelings I have.
I guess I just want some thoughts, advice. I want this to be fun for all of us.