The wedding planning has been great, but life seems to be wanting to bring me down hard core, I am so stressed out and ready to give up, I feel so ran down, my sister is clinically depressed and i love her so much but this past week is almost more than I can handle. I am feeling stuck and unsure of what to do next. She is nine years older than me and i have been watching out for her these past two years at least. This post may seem extreme but i really need to vent somewhere, i cant talk to family about this and i really need to get this out. My sister tried killing herself five years ago and she failed, she was hospitalized for five months after the first incident. After she was released she seemed to be doing better, but with in these past few months things have made a turn for the worse. My family knows she is not doing good but I am the only one who really knows what is going on. She has a personality disorder and basically gets to the point where she doesnt know who she is and does things she wouldnt normally do, it seems like someone else is thinking for her. Well this last Monday i recieved a phone call from a friend of hers saying that she had overdosed on her meds and that she was asking for me, she refused to lay down until i got there. When i arrived at the house she was so drugged she couldnt talk or even hold her head up, it was scary. I didnt know what to do all i could think of was to get her to lay down and try to sleep it off. (we had already made sure that what she had taken was not lethal) we finally got her to sleep then just had to watch her vitals all night. I work full time so i had to leave her in the care of her friend the next day, I called her friend around two thirty on tuesday to see how she was doing and in the few short seconds he took his eyes off of her to tell me what was going on she managed to find a razor blade and slice her arm wide open. I left as soon as possible and ran to the house to try and patch her up. The cuts were right below a main artery but missed it so i was able to push the skin folds together and wrap it up, after that i called her counselor and asked him to come over and help. He showed up and did his best to bring her back from her sort of daze the rest of this week has consisted of me monitoring her whenever im off work plus trying to get all the wedding stuff done. My fiance has been amazingly supportive but i am really struggling, i just dont know what else to do, i dunno how else to help. Im scared. I love my sister more than the anything.... but where do i go from here. I want to help her but what more can i do?
I never believed in True Love until I met him.
