My heart is broken, Vibes/T&P please!
So, the day after Slowy's pee all around the house episode, I noticed a new lump between her back legs. We went to the vet yesterday to check her kidney levels and the doc said that this lump was not another mast cell tumor, instead it is a very aggressive lymph node tumor. There really is not anything we can do at this point. She is uncomfortable and in pain. They gave us prednisone to try to slow the tumor's growth, but after very careful and serious thought I think it is time to end her suffering. The steroids will only POSSIBLY slow the tumor's growth, but it is already in the lymph nodes-which means it is spreading throughout her organs.
My heart is broken into a thousand pieces. I never imagined things would go this quickly. When they gave us the diagnosis in November I thought for sure we would have 6 months to a year left with her. I can't believe that she's not going to greet me every day at the stairs, chattering her teeth in excitement. She's not going to goof off in the yard with me, trying to knock me over as she runs by. But I know that it is better for my heart to break than for her to suffer any more. It was with a very tearful heart that I have scheduled an appointment to say goodbye next wednesday.
I wanted to just take a few days to help her check a few things off her bucket list and to take some last photos of her with the Bean. Last night we checked off one of her top wishes-to lay on the couch and fall asleep next to me. She's so gigantic that she's never been on the couch. She was happy down on her bed-but she always looked at me and the couch as if to say "I really want to cuddle with you up there." So last night I helped her up and we both fell asleep with her head in my lap.
If you could all offer up a thought or prayer for Slowy that her journey over the rainbow bridge is swift and painless and that we somehow find comfort.
"His farts smell like Satan's asshole mixed with a skunk's vagina. But it's okay, because I love him." -CSousa
Re: My heart is broken, Vibes/T&P please!
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[QUOTE]Oh Bean... I'm so sorry you're going through this, and my heart is breaking with yours. May she rest in peace in doggie heaven.
Posted by cu97tiger[/QUOTE]
Thank you! The Bean asked me last night if she would go to heaven. Of course, I responded yes. He was confused because his school has said no, she won't because she doesn't have a soul...which I strongly disagree with. There is nothing more than heart and soul about that dog. I promised him that she is going to go to heaven and wait to play with him there.
"His farts smell like Satan's asshole mixed with a skunk's vagina. But it's okay, because I love him." -CSousa
[QUOTE]<strong>Reading your post made me cry.</strong> Losing a pet is so hard. I think you're doing the right thing. Hugs, sweetie.
Posted by Elle1036[/QUOTE]
Me too. : ( I had a feeling that this post was going to be about this before opening it. I'm so sorry. I agree that you're doing the right thing though. And though she may not have had as much time as you thought, just know that her time with you has been happy. She's been loved and well cared for and now she will get to go to a better place without pain. I think the picture (video would be good too) and bucket list idea is very sweet.
[QUOTE]In Response to Re: My heart is broken, Vibes/T&P please! : Thank you! The Bean asked me last night if she would go to heaven. Of course, I responded yes. He was confused because his school has said no, she won't because she doesn't have a soul...which I strongly disagree with. There is nothing more than heart and soul about that dog. I promised him that she is going to go to heaven and wait to play with him there.
Posted by beanbot2002[/QUOTE]
Anyone who says animals have no souls needs punched in the teeth. My mother always said if there were no animals in heaven she wouldn't want to go there.
I am so sorry about Slowy =( I am sure she is enjoying crossing items off her bucket list and you have made the right choice. It's hard, but it is the best thing for her.
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Checking one last thing off her Bucket List...
"His farts smell like Satan's asshole mixed with a skunk's vagina. But it's okay, because I love him." -CSousa
"His farts smell like Satan's asshole mixed with a skunk's vagina. But it's okay, because I love him." -CSousa
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