I need some advice.
I need to know how to control the BSC.
I am a planner. I also have been "dreaming" of my wedding since I was a little girl. And not dreaming as in planning, but dreaming as in I can't wait to have that romantic day with the man I love in front of family and friends.
I've been with the bf for almost 5 years now, we've lived together for two. Naturally, the talk of engagement has come up (quite a bit). The talk of how we would like our wedding to be has come up (and I'm not the only one who brings it up).
Now, we're at the point where family members (aka parents) are starting to ask when it's going to happen.
Here's the thing. We would like to pay for most (if not all) of the wedding ourselves, however, in this tough economy, I am the only one with a full time gig. He has a half-time gig that pays very well, and we can definitely make ends meet. He is actively, whole heartedly searching for something in his field that is full time.
And now here comes the part where the BSC comes into play.
He has told me he will be proposing within the next year. Yes, I know some people don't like to know time-frames, but I'm a planner, can't help asking. Do I honestly think he would tell me when he is proposing? No. I'm not an idiot (even though I probably sound like one here).
I know he has a plan. I know he wants me to shut up about when it's going to happen. I CAN'T STOP. Because I know it's going to happen soon. And guess what? the holidays make it ten times worse.
Any advice? I want to be the kind of person who can just sit back and take the surprise....
Sometimes it just helps to vent. Which is kinda what this is.