One of my bridesmaids emailed me last night to tell me that she won't be able to wedding (*tear). She's one of my closest friends, we've known each other since we were 7 years old, we were college roommates all 4 years of college, and I was a BM in her wedding, so I'm really bummed that she won't be able to make it. 
She had a baby prematurely back in November and since then, things have been really stressful for her and her husband. They had to pay a bunch of extra hospital bills since the baby had to stay there for 6 weeks. She had to take extra days off from work, when she didn't get approved for short term disability. She lives in DC and our wedding is in FL so she doesn't feel comfortable leaving the baby with her parents for the weekend. And she also thought about flying her parents down to help her watch the baby in FL (they have a bunch of frequent flyer miles) but that wasn't working out either. I know she feels really bad about the situation and I told her to not worry about it. I know she would have been there if she could have made things work. And I know how difficult it has been for them the past few months. So I totally understand her situation and am SO not mad, just so sad that she won't be there.
On top of that, a while back, one of my MOHs (I had 2) had to drop out of the wedding too. She got pregnant and her due date is 2 weeks before our wedding. And of course I was and am SO happy and excited for her and her husband. But it also made me sad that she wouldn't be able to make it to our wedding because she's one of my bestest friends. We've known each other since we were 10, were close all throughout grade school, went to college together, I was a BM in her wedding. So its such a bummer that she won't be at our wedding either.
So out of my 5 bridesmaids, 2 had to drop out, and now I'm down to 3. I feel really bad about feeling so sad about these two not being there. They don't know how sad I am about it because I don't want them to feel bad at all. And I know its not their fault, it is what it is, but I just can't help feeling so sad about this. I guess its because I'm not going to have a lot of family there at my wedding (they all live in India and its too much for them to travel to the U.S.). I'm going to have a bunch of friends there, but about 75% of the guests are from my FI's side (he has a lot of family that lives in the U.S.). So its just a huge bummer because aside from my family, I would have really loved for my bestest friends to be there with me.
Is anyone else going through something like this? I really need to snap out of this because I don't want to be sad about this with 38 days left until the wedding!