It hit me a couple days ago, feeling overwhelmed with everything. Not just wedding related stuff but everything!
My children: Now that school is out for my son its complete chaos. He has so much energy that I cant keep up. I take him out to run, parks, places, swimming, but there is only so much I can do bible camp doesnt start until the week of the wedding. My daughter has been on an early terrible 2 streak! She is biting, hitting, taking her diaper off, trying to get outside. We have a top lock so there is NO way she can get out. But the hitting and biting is insane! We put her on time out in the corner and tell her NO. My son never went through this. I dont know if its a sign for more attention. This morning she took off her diaper hid and peed in one of my scrap book boxes. ugh.
My sister: She was in the hospital for 6 days. She was released yesterday and is doing fine. They said she contracted Ecoli, that resulted in a UTI and kidney infection. While she was in the hospital her FI was home. He is completely USELESS! She asked me to go over and go through all the bags from the baby shower, she left for the hospital right after the shower. So i go over there and the house is 90'. No AC, no fans going, no windows open. The house stinks! Dishes in the sink and dishwasher full, clothes hanging from the dryer to a basket. Trash isnt taken out, crunch up chips on the floor of the kitchen, just a hell hole! I tell my sister that her house looks like a bomb went off and tell her exactly what I saw since she hasnt seen it since she left for the hospital. She told me that her FI told her "he doesnt know how to work the dishwasher" and was completely honest! WTF who doesnt know how to read the damn dishwasher labels! He is a complete mamas boy who had his mother do everything for him! It upsets me that she is basically a slave in that household.
My FI: He had a job interview yesterday he came home not thrilled but not upset because he doesnt want to get his hopes up becuase the last interview he left feeling amazing and it was pulled out from him in a work scandal. We found out he was basically interviewed for a paper trail, that they knew all along they were going to higher a person who had only been on the job for 3 months. FI has been there for 7 years! He also has been a complete AHOLE about my sister. He and my sister havent had the best relationship. She has said some nasty things in the past and they both still hold onto a grudge!
WR: Tomorrow I have to assemble 30 table numbers, 200 wedding programs, 170 dinner menus, drink menu. Tuesday order wedding favors, guestbook, purchase kegs, and wedding license. 2 of my bms have yet to receive their dresses. I called DB today and they said 1 is being shipped and the 2nd which was ordered the last week of APRIL hasnt even been processed and doesnt see it coming until JULY 4th! 10 days before the wedding.
NWR: Daughter starts swim and baby gym for 2 weeks with FMIL. I feel like I cant keep a clean house for the life of me. It may not be as bad as my sisters that for sure but i hate having to pick up the same crap all the time! How hard is it to get your empty water bottle into the recycle bin, or put your plates in the dishwasher, or put your clothes in the laundry basket? FI does help with cleaning but there are some days he just doesnt care. I feel like im constantly nagging him, do this, do that, remember this, remember that and when he doesnt do it or remember something I flip out! Starting my period early may be the reason for the mood swings and anxiety. Overall i feel like im losing control over everything and I am a complete control freak. Im a NOW NOW NOW kinda person who doesnt take no nonsense.
I need to just relax and breathe. I tried to escape and take a shower but not even 5 minutes i had kids barging in the bathroom to say " mom what are you doing". A moment of silence, relaxation! I tried to drink a beer last night to calm my nerves and that made me even more annoyed.
Tell me to take a chill pill, breathe, relax that im not losing my mind!