the past two weeks have been quite the adventure. i wish i could say that everything's settled down, but there's still SO much to do.
of course, it was a super happy reunion, but it's not really what i expected. we house hunted the day after he got home, and luckily landed an awesome place, but its been nonstop move/pack/buying stuff for the new place ever since. both of us are super overwhelmed, and i feel like its taking a toll on our relationship
. our lives were just so easy breezy before, so its been a full force, loaded change. its hard adjusting to not only him being back home, but also moving out of LA. ive never lived away from here, so its a pretty big deal for me.
i put in my notice at work, and while im finishing up here, i havent really saved up any money. so im also dealing with the "burden feeling"... like im not contributing, and whatnot. i'm not used to anyone paying this much money in general, let alone being part of it. its just an uneasy feeling. i want to repay him, or freakin help at least, but i just feel helpless. while he's clearly overwhelmed too, he's still reassuring. its not like before, in the sense that it was so easy to just say how sweet everything would be.
i know everythings going to be fine, but its all just over my head right now. we're going to vegas this weekend (not really our idea, but we're going with friends). part of me feels like we could be getting more stuff done... but maybe its a blessing, that we'll have time to forcibly just hang out.
either way... im so happy hes home, and safe, and we're taking steps forward in our relationship
. big, big changes, and maybe im not 110% giddy right this second, but im sure it'll come around sooner or later.