I was going to put this in the tuesday thread, but decided it was too long and didn't want to hijack the thread.
The last few weeks and so have been super tough. Me and FI have decided to postpone our wedding. First is financially. I'm try to find a better paying job/move to a different area/ect. And having a wedding on top of that is way to much stress. There are also a lot of more personal issues that we are working on before we get married. Its that whole, I love him dearly, just do not think he would make a good husband type deal. I kept hoping some of them would just go away, but they weren't. And they definitely won't go away once we are legally married. So, as of now, we are still engaged and whatnot. Just taking the time and space we need, and working on ourselves as individuals first. Than we can work on 'us' and hopefully by than we will both be in a better situation financially and mentally to be married.
And, while it has been sucky, I've felt a lot better personally. I've been able to do things that I have wanted to do and, well, weird as it sounds, feel like I am 'growing up.'
I do still plan on coming on to TK once and awhile, but nearly as much as I use to. You ladies are a great bunch, and I can't wait to see and hear about all your guys wedding planning, and the weddings themselves.
Sorry for the long post. Even though its been awhile, only a few of our friends know, so its a relief to type it out. Also this is kind of a post & run. I've been baking cookies and cleaning, so I'm not glued to my computer the whole day.
