I changed my screenname!! I just wanted you ladies to know so you weren't trying to figure out who I was. It was weird seeing "BrideToBeBecauseHeLovesMe." He still loves me but now we're married!! :P Anyways, I'm back!!
Honeymoon: It was fun, we went with his parents and we went to Florida (Clearwater Beach). We went to Sea World, Animal Kingdom, and Busch Gardens. I have so many pictures!! I'll try and find a way to share all the pictures, I just have to find somewhere online to make an album (those on Facebook I should be putting them up eventually).
House: I got done painting the inside rooms May 28th (last Saturday) so now hubby (so weird and wonderful to say that!!) and his dad and papa are finishing up some roofing on the porch, then putting in the flooring. Then the cabinets and appliances go in and a doggy fence gets put up and I'll be ready to move down there!! I've taken pictures, but they're not developed yet - DH's mema has them.
Pictures: Thank you ladies for all of your compliments!! I truly appreciate them!! Everyone keeps commenting that we look so happy, I'm so glad because we were/are!! The man (Daddy James) that walked me down the aisle...errr stairs...is like a dad to me and I have NO regrets in him walking me and never will. I felt like Cinderella in that dress but I'm so glad I went with poofy after all!!
Tips for the wedding: Don't stress!! I know that's so hard to do but my sister stressed about EVERYTHING and now it doesn't matter, over a year later. Things kept going wrong with DH and my wedding, but we just said, "It's ok. Everything'll work out." And it did.
Daddy James's wife, Amy, kept saying, "Are you
SURE it's ok?!?! You can freak out if you want to!! It's your wedding, we can fix this or do that...I want you to be happy!!" I kept telling her I was happy but they were just so amazed at how calm I was. Trust in Him and you'll make it without a hitch, even though it's not how you might have planned it - He's still in control. I think I said this but we had to move the wedding location 2 days before, as well as change where everyone from out of town was lodging. We had one FG instead of two because the second couldn't make it since the roads were flooded. For the first look, I didn't remember until like 5 minutes before the wedding since pictures got pushed to AFTER the wedding, so I hollered for the photographer and she came upstairs to do them. Her assistant was busy, so she started taking the first look shots by herself when at the last minute her assistant popped up and got one of the shots I thought I'd never have, and didn't know about until I saw the pictures:
God took care of EVERYTHING. On the outside it would seem chaotic, but I always felt at peace because I just kept thinking, "God, you must have some reason for all this rain. Let it be. Thank you for being in control, even though it's not what I initially thought I wanted. I don't know you're reasoning, but you must have some sort of plan I don't know about."
Another tip: Smile!! You NEVER know when the photographers are taking photos and the more you and DH smile, the better the candid shots!! And just be yourself. When we kissed as hubby and wife, I kissed Clint's nose out of habit - the photographer got the picture!!
Relax, trust God, SMILE and have fun, be yourself, enjoy the moment because it FLIES by. You're obviously marrying your honey because you love him, SHOW it.
Life: Everything I've touched on is happy and everything is falling or has fallen into place.
But there is one thing I need prayer for if you could. My bioligical father is a piece of work and I wonder if you could pray for him - I'm not sure what to even have you pray. Here's the situation: I haven't really talked to him in two years or so. He's told me I'm going to hell and decided I slept with a lot of guys from my school, as well as partied and all (I've still never been to a party, or if I have it's been once and I left when I found out some kids were going around the corner of the fence to get high.) Anyways, a few days before the wedding, his wife text me and asked when the big day was. I found it odd and felt like there was something fishy going on but didn't know what. I told her it was Sunday and she said she hopes we're happy or blessed or something like that. I said thank you and we ended the conversation. I was trying to be nice to Ron (I don't want to call him dad or father, as he doesn't act like one) and text him and it went like this:
I asked if he wanted wedding pictures.
He said he already had pictures of my sister's wedding.
"I meant mine."
No response.
"Did you want pictures?"
"Really wasn't invited didn t think any of my children would disrespect their father and step mother the way that's been done you all were wrong" "You did the same to me; I'm sorry you feel that way. Have a good night and I hope your future is according to His plan. God bless."
This morning I woke up and had two texts from him:
"We didn't think you would want to come at that time we was wrong we were sorry after"
"Every one makes choices in life i pray u don't have too many u regret in life they'll keep coming back over and over till Jesus washes them away"
"I pray the same for you."
I can tell you he's not being nice in his texts, that his tone is negative, angry, and mean. It breaks my heart that he has told me he's disowned me, and that he keeps proving it to be true time and time again. At this point, I no longer want a relationship with someone so hurtful but am not sure how to pray for him. I'm not asking for sympathy or for you to feel bad for me by any means. :P I'm ok, I have Clint and Daddy James, as well as Clint's dad whom I call dad. I'm just asking for prayer!!
Last story: Clint's dad, Rick, has never hugged a girl Clint dated before but we hug anytime one of us leaves the state (to go from AR to KS or visa versa). This last time when I left AR for KS, I gave mom and dad (Clint's parents) a hug and his dad gave me a quick kiss on the neck!! In a daughterly way - nothing creepy. It was so sweet!! I just had to share.
Pick your favorite cookie if you made it through all of that, or even half!!
I'm glad to be back, can you tell? :P