as this wedding gets closer.. there are so many unknowns and its making me feel ill.
why can't people rsvp?
i am trying to do the day of timeline and that is making me feel sick. i don't know how long stuff takes or how long to schedule stuff for...
i've been dreaming of my wedding since i was little.. and 'planning' since atleast 7 years ago.. crazy i know, FI are celebrating our 10 year in a month... i thought i had everything planned out but i don't.
things that i thought i cared about i really don't.. and stuff i didn't think was a big deal is getting to me.
my shower is this weekend and i can't get ahold of my mum and i don't know if FI's mom is coming... that makes me sad
i think i'm just overreacting but thinking about all of it makes me wanna cry.
i just needed to get that out.. FI doesn't really wanna listen and doesn't understand when i have these freakouts.. ugh!

we're having twins!