I know its not C&V day but I just need to vent/have a little pitty party for myself.
I am getting so depressed with all this planning. Why depressed, you ask? Because I have so much on my my plate right now!! I graduated college over a month ago and still have no job, my savings acount is dwindling, bills keep coming in, my family keeps getting on me about getting a job... I just get depressed even looking at wedding ideas because I feel like I'll never be able to afford anything if I can't get a job soon!! I was a top runner for a recent job but found out on friday they offered it to the other girl! So mad about that!! I've been checking multiple resources daily for new job postings and have been applying like mad! places that aren't even advertiseing have my resume! I've only had 1, ONE, interview in the last 8 weeks!!
I feel like I'm failing... then I start thinking, what if I don't get a job and FI doesn't want to marry me anymore?!? AAARRRGGGHHHHHH!!! I HATE THIS!!!
then I've been getting crabby (aka bitchy) towards people and my fuse has been getting shorter with every day that goes by with no job! and then people ask me why I'm in a bad mood.... um HELLO? I'm going broke!!!! yeah sure I have a job, it's an extremely part time job, and it doesn't even come close to covering my monthly bills!!
but yeah... that's my vent for now... I want to be happy and work on planning our wedding but I just can't...