So tomorrow is our two month anniversary (yay!- do people even celebrate those things?) and I expected to have some pictures by now. Well, I don't. Actually, I have one from our photographer. One.
Under normal circumstances, I can get over it. However, my mother has been sick for about a year now with Stage 4 liver disease. She was diagnosed with six months to live, but she has been fighting it and seeing as many doctors as humanly possible as well as undergoing tons of chemotheraphy.
Background information: I am not close with my mother (in fact, didn't even invite her to the wedding because it would have caused so much drama- long story), but I did go see her a few weeks before my wedding in North Carolina. I even talked about this with my photographer during my bridals because she is a friend and I felt it was okay to share. She expressed sympathy, but I am not sure if it stuck with her or not.
Well my mother has taken a severe turn for the worse (sepsis) and I don't think I will have a chance to go see her again (it's that bad). She could fall into a coma at anytime, considering that her liver is already so badly damaged. I asked our photographer if I could have whatever photos she had so that I could share with my mother (my father and I, my grandmother putting on my dress, DH and I considering she has never met DH), and she said she is too busy right now and will get to them this weekend. I don't even know if I will have until the weekend and I would hate if my mother couldn't see these photos of her daughter and what used to be her family. I even expressed that they didn't have to be edited, that I just wanted to share whatever I could with my mother given the circumstances. Photographer said it will take her a long time to go through them and she doesn't have the time right now.
Am I being unreasonable? It has been two months. I *understand* the process, truly, for obvious reasons that I cannot state on here... but the fact that there are no "ready" pictures that she can give me after two months? Am I over reacting because I am so emotional about everything? I usually don't share much regarding personal life, but I just want to make sure I am not being an OMH-zilla and need some validation or scolding for my behavior, whichever you think it warrants. I did express to her the situation and the fact that my mother's remaining time is unknown. I know that I am not too close to my mom, but I think it would mean a lot if I could at least share this considering she did not know me very well. Maybe I am just clinging onto a moment?
TIA!