So, I am a month out and I feel like everything that CAN go wrong… Will go wrong. Married girls, is this normal? I feel so guilty saying this, (please don’t judge me!) but I am upset with my parents for having my Dad’s surgery 5 weeks before my wedding. Ok. So they KNEW it needed to be done back in December. They were originally going to do it after the wedding, but I guess at the last minute decided to do it in March. I know it is best for my dad to do it now… My mom is his primary caregiver and I just feel upset that my mom can’t be there for me for wedding related stuff (we have always been really close), she probably won’t come up for my Bridal shoot, my shower or anything besides the wedding. My dad isn’t progressing like he should, my mom doesn’t communicate really, but last I heard they were having problems with blood chemistry and he was back in the hospital.
FMIL, has gone MIA. I hate bugging people when I send them an email and a text message and no reply. But that is my FMIL right now, which is strange because she always responds back within a few minutes and then to not hear anything for a week is weird. FI tells me to just email and text her again… but I don’t want to be a nag. Because lets face it, the texts had to do with rando’s on FIs side inviting themselves. You are FFIL’s cousin that he has never seen..but you want to come because it would be a good time to meet? Um… WTF. How on God’s green earth did you hear about the wedding in the first place? I originally said yes because I thought it was just ONE person. I didn’t know they would bring their family!! Good God.
FI has been on the boat for a couple of weeks and has been no help at all. The communication issue is making me more stressed because normally when it comes to a task that I just don’t want to do I pass it on to him and tell him IDGAF just do it. He likes surprises, he likes to do surprises… I HATE surprises, I like to know everything that is going to happen. Normally it doesn’t bug me because I can figure it out quickly…but with the wedding I keep having to tell him that he has to communicate with me when he is working on something. Don’t just say “I have it handled” and expect me to believe you. Last time I talked with him he thought he could just go to the liquor store and buy the alcohol the week of the wedding…AH! Have I mentioned that FI (H) is leaving the day after the wedding to be back at work on Monday? And when I say back at work… It isn’t FL and I can’t go with him.
I am really ready to just cancel the stupid wedding and go on a vacation by myself…
Sorry for the vent, I feel like I have to have this happy fake face all the time…but deep down, I am hating every minute of it. I have a really bad fault that I hate bugging people so I never ask for help when I need it.. Don’t quote me, I may DD later.