First off, I'm super sorry if this is out there on the boards already. My searching skills aren't too sharp and I could have easily missed it. Also, this is very long, but has all the background info.
About two years I left my cozy home full of diet obsessed women with our precious whole grains and full fruit bowls to leave the life of high school Valedictorian behind me and really stress out over university credits. The freshman fifteen invited his twin along for the ride and I jumped from 145/150 to about 175 by last summer. This was all due to severe eating out provided by the food areas on campus. I didn't have a car so driving to get groceries was out and even if I did have em, cooking in a closet sized kitchen didn't go well. For the most part I ate salads and grilled chicken burgers, but I couldn't turn down the ice cream bar, coffee shop, pizza, and other things that felt free (because they were on a meal plan paid for by my scholarships) and someone else made em.
I got back to 165 by the end of summer, but that doesn't look too good on my 5'5" frame. I don't live in the dorms anymore, I live with two men (my BF and a foreign exchange student) in an apartment. They like white bread, mayo, katsup, fries, burgers, and not vegies. I can only afford fresh fruit for about a week out of the month and the only vegies I get are steamers bags of frozen ones, which I get about 3 out of the month. I try to pack a lunch but sometimes run out of time. It's also expensive and too time consuming to make 2 different dinners, so I generally eat pizza or whatever else those two eat.
Andy and I agreed to get up and work out 3 days a week but so far I'm the only one waking up that early enough and, since I go to sleep 2 hours earlier to get up by then, I wind up doing homework from 6am-9am before going to class. The BF isn't putting much effort into the exercise and regardless of who tells him how many times, he won't change how he eats.
The gym fascilities at my apartment open at 9 which is when I leave for class and I can't go to the gym at school because we live so far away from campus and only have one car. I get home between 2:30 and 4:30 every day and have from then till 10 to relax, do homework, clean my house, grocery shop, etc. Working out in the evening generally makes me feel sick and too tired to do anything else.
I know all this seems like a whiny rant about how I can't do anything, but this is ligitimately how I feel right now and it's driving me nuts. It's horrid being in college and overweight, dreaming of my wedding, and having no support or money to join the gym near my home or WW/JC. Would anyone out there like to offer me some advice - and getting a new man/telling him to shape up is actually the oposite of helpful. Thanks so much for making it through all that.
*HugZ*
~Meghan