I've been sporadically posting these past couple weeks, and I know I've missed a bunch of fun threads on here, but it's hard to get motivated to post. My brother passed away on the 7th under some pretty bad circumstances and the funeral planning ended up on me. It was so hard, and it still is. I was adopted, so he was older than the average brother for someone my age (52) but he was my brother nonetheless.
I've tried to look at wedding stuff because it always made me happy before, but it hurts because I asked him to walk me down the aisle since my parents are passed away, and now he's gone. He was in bad health and I didn't think he had much longer but I was thinking a handful of years, not so soon. I find slight comfort in knowing that he won't have to struggle or hurt anymore. The last time I saw him was at my uncle's funeral in December and I hate that I didn't go see him in that time. I got to hug him and tell him I love him the last time we saw each other, so I can't regret not letting him know anything.
I don't want to bring down the happiness of the board right now, especially since we're all finally getting into the nitty gritty of wedding planning, but I just wanted to share with you girls a little of what's going on with me. I kind of debating on whether or not I should post this, but I didn't want to be flaky for no reason.
On a happy note, I received notice that my dress will be here on Wednesday so that should lift my spirits. (Pics will be posted ASAP!) I also started a new job (Starbucks! YAY!) Not exactly a dream career, but a fun part time job for me to bring in some extra $$ since my last job was a bust. I'm usually a pretty positive person, so even though it's been a bad few weeks, my FI has helped me so much and been my rock.
Thanks for reading...I'm just so full of drama what with my doggie Penny and now this. Y'all are so supportive.
