Some people may remember that I posted in December that my uncle was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. It spread very quickly and currently hospice is coming to their home. Last Tuesday, the hospice nurse advised my family that she estimated he had a few days left so I decided to come back to NJ to be with my family. H came with me but had to return to OH on Monday, I am still in NJ.
Physically, my uncle is shell of his former self. He is about 90 pounds and hasn't eaten in 3 weeks at this point. But mentally he is strong, he told my cousin is he not ready to go. He says he wants to stay until Father's Day. It's a horrible situation because you don't know what to hope for--you want him to stay forever, but he is in a lot of pain and is suffering so much.
There is a charity benefit on Saturday in OH that I am supposed to attend. It is an important event for H and he would really like me to be there (although of course understands if I can't). I feel terrible about possibly not being there to support my H. We had planned on my flying back to OH on Saturday but now I just don't know what to do. Should I book a ticket for Saturday? It would be silly to fly back on Saturday and then turn around and go right back to NJ, but then there's also the possibility that my uncle wills himself to stay for another month.
I feel so morbid and guilty discussing practicalities at a time like this (and obviously no one can predict the future) but I just don't know what I should do. Buy the plane ticket and if I end up needing to be here Saturday so be it? Buy the plane ticket and go home and then plan to come right back/see what happens? Stay in NJ indefinitely?
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What a hard situation! I'm so sorry Melissa!
If I were in the situation, I would only leave if I had said my goodbyes and I had come to the terms with the fact that this may be the last time I see my uncle.
Its so hard because what if he does live another week or two? Or a month?
Either way, if you go home, you'll be returning to NJ. I guess the question is when.
I would want to support my husband also. And your uncle probably wants you to live like nothing is wrong because he obviously thinks he's gonna be around for a while.
I probably wasn't any help but that's how I'd look at it.
I'm sorry Melissa!
HOW important is it that you are in OH with H? is he the mc of the event? is he background? if it's just for a day...i think he should be able to be fine on his own... worst case scenario is you aren't there with your uncle and then you never see him again...
but of course, it's up to you.
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i think you should stay in NJ as long as necessary...even if your uncle passes before sat, i don't think it's practical to hop onto a plane the next day...the family still needs your support....
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What I think is the hardest, is that if you knew he would pass quickly, I would definitely stay. But, if it could be several weeks or longer, that makes it more difficult b/c you can't put your life on hold indefinitely.
It sounds like H understands if you cannot be there for him for this event, so you do what you need to do and what you feel is right, whatever that may be.
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