A source of drama and confusion a couple of weeks back has turned into something else entirely. I have accepted the fact that if he is the boy's father, I would love and care for this child- however, I have prayed long and hard that the baby not be his. Too much drama and mess in other areas that I had not wanted to deal with but I had also prayed that if the child is his for the Lord to open my heart to this new life. The child is very young (2 months old) so the child would grow up knowing me from the very beginning....
On New Year's Day the baby was admitted into the hospital with RSV. I know the severity of it, my 4yr old daughter was admitted at the same age and spent 3 days at the same hospital when she began to wheeze. I remember crying when they told me she had it because I knew that for a baby it could be life threatening.
His son has been there for 5 days now, and earlier he called me to tell me that the doctors had called him and his BM to tell them that they needed to speak with them. This baby has been on breathing tubes and a feeding tube. They tried to remove the tubes and give the baby a bottle but he threw it all back up and his wheezing got worst so he had to have the tubes put back in place. The baby is getting worse.
Ladies, despite my not wanting my husband to have another child, I do not want this either. I am a mother myself, having gone through this same scenario with my daughter and my heart goes out to the BM and my husband. I feel the fear as if it is my own child. I am scared for this child. Oddly enough I feel a love for this child though I do not know him. Ladies, I beg of you, please pray for my step son. This has really opened me up to realize that, if this is what God has intended for us, I will gladly help raise and love this child as my own. I just want him to get better so that I can have the pleasure of knowing him.
