First of all, I am very sorry that you have lost a parent. My dad is ill and we're all bracing for his passing. I'm scared.
I don't know if this type of info is going to help my personal sitation, but I'm really grasping for straws.
Do you think you were in the proper emotional state to truly enjoy your wedding (ours will be with no guests), and make happy memories associated with your wedding just 1-3 months after the passing happened?
[We could do this elopement trip in August but it requires that things get booked right now, it's not a last minute type of destination. I realize I'm trying to forecast the impossible.]