Alright so here goes: I gained a decent amount of weight last year just from "not caring". I think it actually was a result of restricting for so long. I decided to turn to HCG because diet and exercise weren't working for me. I did one round with great success and he weight stayed off for about 6 months then slowly started to creep back on. Once I began seeing it come back I decided to do another round. Then something clicked and I just told myself that this was doing way more harm than good for my body. I immediately stopped but because of that caused me to gain 18 lbs in 2 short months. I have not stopped working out or eating properly just haven't been so strict. I am now getting so hard on myself. I am eating and tracking the "proper" foods and working out 5/6 days a week and even training for my 6 th half marathon. I guess I just need encouragement. And reinforcement that I am in fact doing everything I should be doing to get to a healthy weight and be able to look in the mirror again:/ I understand I did do it the wrong way so please don't scold me , trust me I have done that enough. Sorry for the rambling.