Vent. Grr.

Re: Vent. Grr.

• lennonkdc member

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  I'm sorry that you're feeling so stressed/PMS-y/frustrated with your job. I know how out of control my emotions are when I'm off BC, so I understand how upsetting it is when you know you are being silly/bitchy/irrational but there is nothing you can do to stop it. For what its worth, I have switched to the ring, and my PMS has never been better (ok that sounds weird...) I just ment that I just don't get enraged the way I used to...

  
  

  As for BF, I think guys some time just think 'ok, I solved this issue yesterday, so why is she still upset?' Its just how boy's minds work...He's a good guy and he loves you, so just chalk it up to a bad communication day. 

  
  

  Finally, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you on the job front, but I know you won't need it b/c they're gonna hire you!!!!!

  
  

  
  

  
  

  

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• Swazzle member

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  Liv is a smart cookie & I have to second just about everything she said above. 

  
  

  I just wanted to send big HUGS & job-getting vibes to you, the top 2 is AMAZING, Bri, really, you should be proud of yourself!!!!

  
  
  

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• GoldenPenguin mod

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  Thanks, ladies! I have a doctor's appointment on Monday, so hopefully we can work some of this hormonal/anxiety stuff out. I guess I forgot how miserable PMS can be!! And because my anxiety has been so well managed for so long, it's kind of throwing me off to have it raising it's ugly head again.
  
  You are all right... BF probably just doesn't understand how fully frustrated I am. I think that's one of the hard parts of being in a long distance relationship - it's not always easy to convey those feelings over the phone. We have fabulous conversations almost every night... and he has told me before that he hates to hear me sad/upset/unhappy... so to get that two nights in a row, he probably wasn't thrilled.
  
  As for the job, I just have to not think about it, and hope everything goes my way. I still haven't told my mom about it, and I just really want to be able to call her with good news next week!! Thanks again ladies, you are the best :-)
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• Blue & White member

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  Bri, I'm not a huggy person (AT ALL) but I so want to give you a hug right now!  I will send the best vibes I can over to you!
  
  Most of my family is affected with anxiety (only 3 were/are diagnosed, but I see it in EVERYONE) - it can really make you crazy sometimes!  And PMS is just lame.  My skin condition gets WORSE when I'm PMSing so I always feel like I turn into a monster during that time (mainly because I'm annoyed at my skin, haha).
  
  Yay, your PMS is almost over!  And I'm so glad your BF is awesome during this!  Good luck!
  

  I guess, to tell you the truth, I've never had much of a desire to grow facial hair. I think I've managed to play quarterback just fine without a mustache. - Peyton

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• dwest2201

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  I don't have any experience with anxiety, but I wanted to say that 2 of the 3 times that I came off of BC my body and my emotions were a complete wreck!  The last time was the worst, I was sad, mad, depressed, worried, pissed, and a ton of other things constantly...I yelled at BF over practically nothing (I'm not a yeller at all)...It took about 3 months for me to even back out, poor BF dealt with it pretty well, considering I was acting so crazy.   We made a joint decision that I was not going to take any hormonal BC ever again...yes, it was that bad! 
  
  Also, it sounds like your anxiety meds were prescribed while you were already on BC, perhaps your dosage just needs adjusted?
  
  Hugs, hang in there!  And as others have said top 2 is awesome, especially with how competitive it is right now to get jobs.  Stay positive, the only reason that you wouldn't get this job would be that there is something even better, right around the corner!
  
  

  

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• alanna91 member

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  I think it's awesome you have such good odds at this new job! No matter the outcome, hopefully it'll give you that confidence boost knowing you're competitive in the job market.
  
  I know you've probably heard this a lot, but yoga does wonders for anxiety. It helps you refocus and relieve tension. It may seem a little crunchy granola but check out this link: http://www.emotionalhealingthroughyoga.com/10-favorite-yoga-poses-for-anxiety/. Especially try the first one, it's something easy that you can do pretty much anywhere.
  
  I hope you end up having fun with your sister! You may not be able to spend too much money but I bet you're still going to end up have a great time.
  
  Hugs to you!!

  

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• GoldenPenguin mod

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  Thanks ladies. You really know how to make a girl feel better :-)
  
  I am really looking forward to tomorrow. It's a fun story with me & my sister - and my brother too. I just met them last January :-) My biological father has never been a part of my life - he left before I was born - and ended up getting married & having two kids. He & their mother got divorced when my brother was just little, and they don't have anything to do with him now (he's really just a huge douche). I found out they existed about three years ago, and decided after Christmas last year that I wanted to get in contact with them. They went to my rival high school (I actually went to my sister's junior prom!), and still live in my hometown area - another major reason why I want to move home.
  
  So getting together with her is always really fun... I just wish I wasn't so looney tunes right now so I'm not stressing about it.
  
  Oh, and I texted BF a few minutes ago saying I'm sorry for being crazy, and tried to explain the hormonal stuff & that I will try not to take it out on him anymore.

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• GoldenPenguin mod

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  Also - Alanna, thank you for the yoga link! I am definitely going to try those out. I really wish I could do a head stand. Right here in the middle of my office. ;-)

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• GoldenPenguin mod

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  Not at all - I love telling our story :-)
  
  I always knew I was adopted by my dad - he adopted me when he married my mom when I was six, so I remember the whole thing. So I knew that he wasn't my biological father, but I had a "Dad" so I never really cared to know my "real" father. Three years ago my mom called to tell me that my biological aunt died of ovarian cancer, so she wanted me to know so that I could tell my doctor - because when I first moved here & did the family history, I just automatically told them about my Dad, because I don't even think about my biological father. Unfortunately, my Dad's history has no bearing on my health!
  
  So, trying to make a long story short, I was more than intrigued. But I didn't know if they knew about me, what kind of relationship they had with our father, etc. Their mom remarried after she divorced our father, and her husband died suddenly last September - but I found out that my brother & sister considered him their "Dad" - much like mine. After Christmas last year, I realized that, as I was getting closer to 30, it was important to me to get in touch with them. So I found them on Facebook, made contact, and it has been wonderful ever since. We are all so much alike it's crazy - we're like a real life nature vs. nurture experiment!
  
  I really owe Mark Zuckerberg a lot... siblings, BF, all through Facebook! haha!

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• csousa1 member

  

  November 2011 edited December 2011

  Wow Bri...I love that story.
  
  First I want to say I'm sorry you are dealing with all this poop. I agree with everything Liv said, and I think trying the yoga will help. Everything going on with you right now would lead someone WITHOUT anxiety issues to have serious stress. PMS helps nothing. Being off BC for a couple months is certainly affecting you, I'm sure. Hopefully the hormones will level out in a few more months!
  
  As for your sibling story, it hits very close to home for me. I also have nothing to do with my biological father, and haven't since he and my mom got divorced when I was two. For the longest time I assumed he was either dead or in jail (he's also a douche), until he tried coming around when I was 14. Last I heard he lived in Colorado. My Dad is my dad, also - he and my mom have been together since I was four, and even though he didn't adopt my sister and I until I was 16 (my mom was afraid of having to notify my bio father), he's just always been my only dad.
  
  I am convinced that my sister and I have half siblings running around the country somewhere. My mom recently found my biological grandmother and aunt on FB, and let me know in case I wanted to contact them. I actually posted about this recently - part of me really does, so that I can find out if I have siblings and track them down. Part of me does not, because I don't have much interest in a relationship with my aunt or grandmother.
  
  That is so awesome that you found them. I love that story!!

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